i have been resisting for so long. i can't help it. but i am still holding back.
holding back the yearning to peek into my past. i do not want to. but somehow i feel that i have to.
and then again, i know i am lying to myself so that i won't feel so bad if i did it again.
as of now, this point in time, i have not faltered. each time i see his face smiling at me, i am thinking, i want u back. but. i know that this can't be. my heart has failed to learn the lesson it has to. i have found other distractions and been sent some as well. seemed to have worked for some time, but since the distraction is no where to be found right now, i am at a lost. possibly the best thing for me to do is log out. shut down the damn computer. go to bed.
GO TO BED! xoxo. good night :)
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ReplyDeleteWhat r u missing..past, dear god or DISTRACTION :)
i miss past off and on. god is with me always. the distraction is now taking an interesting turn which i am missing. this is unusual. haha.
ReplyDeleteDISTRACTION! a flitting flirty distraction..that's what it is. damn.